Wednesday, January 14, 2009
I do wish, sometimes, that people would make decisions for me. Because sometimes it's excruciating to choose. What is right? What is wrong? Maybe there's no right or wrong, but what's the best choice? And would the best choice make you happy? What if the grass is really greener here, where you stand? Oh, no, wait, maybe it's a lot rosier on the other side.
It is pretty sad I can help with other people's problems and my own problems are piling up undealt with.
Omg, I am being emo in the extreme.
But I guess teenagers do have their emo times. You know, with their queer hormones and all. And yes this is when they start finding themselves. I think. I have no idea what I want to do now, or ever. Globetrotting, maybe?
i thought the world of you
10:50 PM
Friday, January 09, 2009
When I try to stop the rage all I wanna do is cry.
Not just weep but full on blubbering and wailing.
But I thought I was past this.
Failing.
To fail because of one arrogant lecturer's whims. Sure there's still more assignments to go but I'm at risk. At risk. At risk. Because of one stupid subject I can never wrap my head around.
No, actually I managed to do it. It was the way I cut my paper. The way I taped my stuff.
i thought the world of you
1:04 PM
Monday, December 22, 2008
Leaving for Japan tonight. Yeah it's a midnight flight. I don't think I'll get much sleep though. I can't sleep while sitting upright and I hate leaning backwards cos it's horrible for the person behind. Unless of course the person behind leans back, then I will. :D According to igoogle, the highest temperature in Japan today is 7 degrees celsius. Bah, that's nothing...
Nothing good.
I have pretty ugly winter clothes, for one thing. Also being born and bred in a tropical island means I haven't been able to build up my resistance to winter conditions. I went to Melbourne in the summer(!) and was nearly frozen to a statue by gales of wind.
Over the weeks I noticed natural dreadlocks forming at the back of my hair. Yep, leave it tangled and messy for a long period of time, and you get dreadlocks albeit unglam ones. They were all sort of clumped together into huge locks. Today my mom took a comb, sprayed like half a bottle of stuff on my hair and got them all out. It feels much better though the perm is sort of combed out at the back. And the product is making my scalp itch madly. I'm going to wash it out soon and hopefully my hair is still going to remain tangle-free.
i thought the world of you
4:54 PM
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
Just pigged out on a disgustingly huge slab of chocolate. Hey, now, I lost 2kg while doing gracom and locvid...and okay, I don't need to gain it back :)
Am excited about friday. Well obviously not about going for webgraph consultation, but after that. Twilight movie and 4hm bbq. Twilight is starting to annoy me since everyone is going nuts and also I used to love it when it first came out and like almost nobody knew of it but then it went mainstream - hugely so - and it sort of lost that special kind of quality. I like sort-of secrets, you see. And now everywhere I'm bombarded with Twilight, Twilight, Twilight. Vair annoying.
'Two can keep a secret, if one of them is dead'
- 'Secret', The Pierces
i thought the world of you
11:20 PM
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
Spend a lot today. This is going to sound ridiculous but I did spend $39.90 on a belt from Zara. But I have been waiting all my life for a black studded belt and I walked the City Hall area and Orchard and then there it was...
From my new house, it takes like 45 mins to get to Orchard! Well at peak hour anyway. But I doubt it'll get much better at offpeak hours.
I am pretty pissed with my mom and she's pretty pissed at me for being pissed at her. Oh well, that's her. She doesn't like being wrong. Not only does she not like being wrong, she CANNOT be wrong. She is always right. The mutti is always right. Yeah. I wish she would stop fcking up my room. She won't let me arrange things the way I want, she won't stop stuffing things where they shouldn't be, she won't stop butting out and let my room be MY room. You may argue that she paid for the renovation, furniture, etc etc, but I will say zoom off because thats not how things work unless you are an ass of the highest order.
i thought the world of you
10:13 PM
